Currently finishing things up after a very long Friday. I leave for the Yuma County Fair in two days. So I’ve been working like a beast for the last 48 hours since I got home for the Florida leg of the tour. I’m busting ass to get business addressed so I can spend time with Sara and Nate this weekend before I leave.
Oh! One other thing? I’m currently fighting back a flare up. My psoriatic arthritis has been progressively nagging at me the last week. Yesterday, going back to the gym, I antagonized the inflammation and now I’m hurting. I simply pushed a little too hard this time.
It’s the only way I know to work any more. Push. Hard.
That drive stems from a burning desire to create legacy.
I want my son, Nate, to grow up seeing that even though dad has a chronic disease, you can fight through it. I want him to see that it is possible to overcome what is the major hurdle of my life. And I want him to see that, despite the disease, you can build a business, build a family and through it all, build legacy.
If I can build half the legacy for Nate that my father built for me, he’s going to be the luckiest kid on the planet.
My father faced plenty of adversity in his life. And let me tell you, the bullshit he faced is something I would wish on no human being. Growing up he woke up every day and raised his kids, loved my mom and ministered to others. He showed me what it was to take care of someone with chronic pain as my mom has arthritis as well.
Little did I realize at the time, I would grow up to be the one who needed to be taken care of while I battled chronic psoriatic arthritis. I’m so grateful that I have a wife who understands the disease and knows who I am. Sara gets me. Without her, I’d still find a way to win. But battling this disease would be a lot harder.
Still, I work. 12 hour days. 14 hour days. 17 hour day.
I work because I will not wake up when I’m 40, 50, 70 years old and look back with any regret. Growing up in the church as a priest’s kid, the parishioners loved to talk to you on a Sunday morning. Time and time again I heard them say, “You know, if I was your age again…” and give me some sage advice about how they would do things differently. That’s not legacy. That’s regret. And I want none of it.
But legacy doesn’t come with a 6 or 8 hour day. It comes from doing the work necessary to build a legacy.
Nate is going to know legacy. He’s going to know the adversity his father faced and how I constantly beat it back. And he’s going to know that besides love, the most important emotion he can ever feel is gratitude.
So now you understand where I’m coming from when I say everything I do is about legacy.